Ever Loved someone who didn’t love you?

I have always wondered what it would be like to hold her heart in my hand. To have those guarded eyes look at me with tender love. To have her hold me gently, as though I am her precious treasure. To stir her unemotional heart into feeling something more for me.

she wasn’t easy to love, but there was just something about the way she looked at me that made all the jumbled words and incoherent thoughts make sense. Something about the way she talked to me that had me transfixed and bound to her. Something about her that made my entire existence yield to her, as though I couldn’t stand on my own and she was my only strong pillar in this erratic, ever-changing world. Something dark and irresistible about her that made me go to unfathomable extents for her, to reach the stars just for the chance to make her happy.

I wanted so much for her to feel a shred of something for me. I wanted more than anything to be the reason she smiled. I just wanted her to love me back.
And I tried. I tried to see the good side of her. I tried to give her everything I had, until I made her my life.

I tried to love her at the expense of me. But it didn’t matter what I did. she was never close enough.

I interlaced our fingers together, feeling the warmth and tightness around them. I threw my other arm around her neck, clinging onto her, and brushed my lips against her.

But still, she would never be close.

I looked into her unreadable eyes and felt the stiffness of her back, and suddenly I was filled with this need for her to feel something. I pulled her head down to mine and leaned forward until I was kissing her. I could feel her warmth and all-consuming presence. I felt myself slipping away and I was confused and hurt. she continued to stay immobile and unaffected.

she continued to stay out of reach and she did not kiss me back.

Whenever I took two steps towards her, she would take ten steps back. Whenever I thought we had a connection and I was closer to seeing the person behind her composed façade, she would become a stranger the next day and I was no closer to her heart. Whenever I thought she was starting to fall for me and there was a possibility of us, she would become withdrawn and dashed my hopes.

It was many years later I realized her distance had been deliberate, and her lack of concern was unintentional.

It was when I saw her with her that I realized it was not because she was incapable of love, but simply because she just could not love me.
Where she used to hide any association with me, she now publishes pictures of her and her all over her social media. I saw her attending her graduation and looking so proud of her. I saw her holding her hand with her group of friends. I saw how she went on vacation with her, glowing with happiness.
I saw how she did everything I wanted her to do with me, with her. I saw the forever I wanted with her materializing in this current reality with her. I saw how she had all her love, the love I could only dream about.

When you fall for someone who doesn’t feel the same way, your self-esteem is crushed. You can only wonder, why her and why not me? You are heartbroken and it is a wound that never completely heals.

However, you also learn to move on from that. The heartbreak, although painful, is necessary for you to accept what happened and give up trying to convince someone to love you the way you deserve.

Only by moving on from this unrequited love, you can eventually meet the one who feels the same way towards you.

American Media Are Getting People at Home Ready for War With North Korea

Remember what it felt like a couple of months ago when you, as an American, didn’t give much thought to North Korea? I’d like you to try and remember that feeling over the next couple of weeks, because the US government wants that to change. The past month has shown a tremendous shift in news coverage about North Korea. And that’s no accident.

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President Donald Trump continues to beat the drums of war, and the media are going along with him. Trump doesn’t have any particular incentive to bomb North Korea or advocate for regime change in the country. It’s not even clear that Trump knows the leader of North Korea’s name. But Trump is above all a man who likes to be liked. And so far, the actions that have won him the most praise have been when he dropped a bunch of bombs on Syria.

Some talking heads on American TV will insist that we don’t want war. But with a subtle shift in narrative, there comes a sense that “we,” as the world’s police, have no other choice. Once the media talking heads get far enough down that road, constructive criticism of potential war (both at the dinner table and the water cooler) become loaded with questions of “well, if you love North Korea so much, why don’t you move there?”

And just as we saw in the lead up to the second Iraq War in 2003, American military action will begin to feel inevitable. Talks about diplomatic options will be brushed away with “we tried that” and there will be no other course but war.

Then come the slogans: These colors don’t run. Love it or leave it. Liberate Iraq. Or, in this case, Liberate North Korea. And no matter how many times you insist that while you would love to see Kim Jong-un ousted yet don’t want to see war, you will be called a naive traitor—maybe even that greatest of insults, unAmerican—who doesn’t understand how the real world works.

Can North Korea strike the US?

All you need to do is open up the New York Times to see the shift in how Americans now talk about the North Korean threat. In a story published last night, we’re told that there’s a growing sense of urgency, with the headline, “As North Korea Speeds Its Nuclear Program, U.S. Fears Time Will Run Out.”

Behind the Trump administration’s sudden urgency in dealing with the North Korean nuclear crisis lies a stark calculus: a growing body of expert studies and classified intelligence reports that conclude the country is capable of producing a nuclear bomb every six or seven weeks.

By the third paragraph the story is already imagining a hypothetical strike against a US city, in a scenario that we’ve heard off and on since the late 1990s whenever it’s politically expedient:

Now those step-by-step advances have resulted in North Korean warheads that in a few years could reach Seattle. “They’ve learned a lot,” said Siegfried S. Hecker, a Stanford professor who directed the Los Alamos weapons laboratory in New Mexico, the birthplace of the atomic bomb, from 1986 to 1997, and whom the North Koreans have let into their facilities seven times.

And it wouldn’t be the last time that the article cites this outrageous hypothetical that North Korea could strike US cities. The New York Timeseven drops in the possibility of North Korea hitting New York “one day.”

Unless something changes, North Korea’s arsenal may well hit 50 weapons by the end of Mr. Trump’s term, about half the size of Pakistan’s. American officials say the North already knows how to shrink those weapons so they can fit atop one of its short- to medium-range missiles — putting South Korea and Japan, and the thousands of American troops deployed in those two nations, within range. The best estimates are that North Korea has roughly 1,000 ballistic missiles in eight or so varieties.But fulfilling Mr. Kim’s dream — putting a nuclear weapon atop an intercontinental ballistic missile that can reach Seattle or Los Angeles, or one day New York — remains a more complex problem.

Again, this might be a good time to pause and think about your feelings on North Korea a few months ago. Was the country an existential threat to you then? If you’re feeling more inclined to support a preemptive war against North Korea, as Trump has said is now a very real possibility, what changed? Was it reading an article that said North Korea could one day, possibly, maybe hit the United States with a nuclear weapon?

An easy win against an inferior enemy?

Or, take this story from Fox News published yesterday. We’re told that military victory in North Korea would be easy, according to “experts.”

If tensions between the U.S. and North Korea reach the point where America uses its mighty air power against the rogue nation, it won’t be much of a battle, experts told Fox News.In recent weeks, Secretary of State Rex Tillerson has warned that all options “are on the table” should the communist dictatorship continue to threaten its neighbors and the U.S. Vice President Mike Pence echoed that sentiment, saying “North Korea would do well not to test [President Trump’s] resolve or the strength of the armed forces of the United States in this region.”If that strength includes U.S. airpower, North Korea’s antiquated Korean People’s Army Air Force (KPAAF) wouldn’t be able to put up much of a fight.

If you’re old enough to remember the invasion of Iraq in 2003, you’ll recall that Americans were also sold on the idea that victory would be easy. Notably, the piece never mentions or considers what happens after you “defeat” an enemy like Iraq or North Korea.

Number of mentions of civilian casualties in the Fox News article? Zero. Number of mentions of the inevitable humanitarian crisis? Zero. Number of mentions of the likely counterinsurgency campaign that could last untold numbers of years? Zero.

WWE Superstar Shake up 2017

crews.pngApollo Crews to Raw

Crews never quite took off on SmackDown, and will hopefully receive more opportunities on a longer show with more time to fill.

miz.pngThe Miz and Maryse to Raw

The Miz was one of WWE’s MVPs in 2016, and his long-running feud with Daniel Bryan on SmackDown delivered some of the best segments of the year.

dean.pngIntercontinental Champion Dean Ambrose to Raw

A massive loss for SmackDown. The blue brand is not only losing one of its most popular stars, but also one of the most prestigious titles in WWE.

curt.pngCurt Hawkins to Raw

Another SmackDown star who struggled to maintain any sort of momentum, Hawkins likely won’t become a star on Raw, but he may get a bit more air-time.

wyatt.pngBray Wyatt to Raw

Another stunner of a move. The man who was SmackDown’s WWE World Champion just a few weeks ago leaves another huge main-event hole on Tuesday nights.

kalisto.pngKalisto to Raw

It always felt a little strange that Kalisto was separated from all the cruiserweights, and he now is a part of a roster that features a bevy of potential opponents.

rhyno.pngHeath Slater and Rhyno to Raw

A bit of a puzzling move, as the Raw tag team division very recently became loaded with the additions of the Hardy Boyz and The Revival. A few Raw teams should have their move to SmackDown announced Tuesday, though.

bliss.pngAlexa Bliss to Raw

The two-time SmackDown Women’s Champion had been rumored to be on the verge of a switch, and you would have to assume one of Raw’s four leading women could now be headed to SmackDown in exchange.

mj.pngMickie James to Raw

7 time Women’s Champion, Will she regain gold on Raw?

 

ko.pngKevin Owens to SmackDown

Kevin Owens comes to SmackDown as the United States Champion, and after SmackDown lost the Intercontinental Champion to Raw, it was a move that had to happen.

sz.pngSami Zayn to SmackDown

Sami Zayn announced his arrival by saying he’s “finally’ made it to SmackDown, and he should be a much better fit on Daniel Bryan’s roster than he was on Raw.

jm.pngJinder Mahal to SmackDown

I’m not saying no one cares, but noone cares

ss.pngThe Shining Stars to SmackDown

Fans likely remember the seemingly never-ending Shining Star faux-tourism skits every week before the arrived on Raw, but they did very little once they actually made it to the show. They arrived Tuesday to take out American Alpha after a tag match, and like Kevin Owens, had a new look.

snuka.pngTamina to SmackDown

Tamina Snuka hasn’t been seen in action since undergoing knee surgery last May.

flair.pngCharlotte to SmackDown

Charlotte is the most decorated female performer in WWE currently, but she needed new surroundings. She had already wrestled in nearly every type of match imaginable with Sasha Banks and delivered a few great matches with current Raw Women’s Champion Bayley – but you can only face the same two or three people each week for so long. On SmackDown, Charlotte has a number of great potential opponents in Becky Lynch, Natalya and Naomi.

 

sincara.pngSin Cara to SmackDown

With Kalisto moving to Raw, this means there’s no Lucha Dragons reunion in the works.

SmackDown lost a few midcarders to Raw in the shakeup, and Sin Cara can be a valuable asset early in shows even if he’s out of any title picture.

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Rusev and Lana to SmackDown

“Handsome” Rusev is currently out with a shoulder injury that forced him to miss WrestleMania, but he was an underrated role-player on Raw who has the potential to be a main-event contender. He’s bringing his wife.

saxton.pngByron Saxton to SmackDown, David Otunga to Raw

There was some real chemistry between a heel Corey Graves and Byron Saxton, who is generally underrated. This is a move that should benefit SmackDown, and rapes raw in the ass. David Otunga is dead weight anyway you slice it. (I can’t even be bothered to look for a picture of him.)

newday.pngThe New Day to Smackdown

The longest reigning WWE Tag Champions in 20 years. They compete under “Free Bird Rules” meaning all three had the titles.

JBL Constantly Harassed Justin Roberts Backstage

Justin Roberts which most people know as a former WWE commentator, recently published Best Seat in the House, a book which tells
the story of his 12-year WWE career. Roberts says that JBL and others constantly bullied and harassed him backstage, saying that JBL would throw his belongings around and call him names.

“Every day I saw him, he asked me why I was still alive and told me to go kill myself,” Roberts says in BSIH.

Roberts also drops that JBL was being interviewed by a high school kid, and when the he dropped his notes during the interview, JBL asked the child’s mother if she had any children who were not mentally challenged.

“He terrorized me, and a lot of guys,” Roberts said. “He’d make life hell for a lot of guys. He chewed Miz and Morrison out after they won the titles for not celebrating enough.”

Roberts talks about bullying from people other than JBL in the book as well, in general painting a picture of a total madhouse and toxic work environment.

Finishing up,
Roberts hosted a Reddit Ask Me Anything, saying that JBL “terrorized” people backstage.

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